Where Is God When It Hurts ?!

RIP Beautiful Souls!

  ...dedicated to two beautiful souls lost in the pace of a fortnight. 

How do you handle that? How do you even begin to process that thought? How? But it happened and life does take unexpected turns and the saddest part is, we are never ready!

I had the privilege of meeting this young man when my cousin got married into their family. Jovial, bubbly, friendly, accommodating and he will keep you laughing like a village idiot. We quickly gelled, I mean what better way to make acquaintance than through laughter?!

I was a bridesmaid and he was a groomsman, you can imagine the kind of fun and laughter we shared together with the other bridal party.

If I have to describe Victor, the first word that will spring to my mind is funny. He never ceases to make me laugh. He is going to be missed. He will be missed, not by a few but multitudes. Believe me when I say so. He was a personality! He was a walking ball of sunshine.

You Never Know The Last Time..

The other soul that was lost was my uncle Raymond, through a family friend. He was helpful, always willing, jovial, bubbly and full of jokes. He came into our lives for a short while and was gone in a twinkle of an eye. He was the type of person that wouldn’t hurt a fly. He came, shone and left a trace of sparkle in the lives of the people he touched. A man of integrity. Death! Why?

We have no control over death..none at all!

My question is where’s God? Where is God when it hurts?

Times like these my faith wavers. I’m scared. I’m angry. I’m frustrated. I’m sad. I’m speechless. I’m in shock. My mind can’t stop racing. I question everything. You can’t help but ask the formidable question why?

I know I am not supposed to question God’s ways. I know I am not supposed to ask God why but two beautiful souls in the same month is kinda hard to fathom. I can’t comprehend why the beautiful souls finish first. I can’t understand the logic behind that. I am human after all.

Is my faith supposed to stand strong in the midst of all these? Where do you lift up your eyes? Why does all the beautiful people finish first? Why oh why. I guess I will never find answers to some questions.

Young souls. Young lives. Gone in the blink of an eye. We were not ready. The struggle is real but so is God. I am learning the hard way to trust God more.

This just confirmed few things for me.

• Nothing is certain in life, nothing is guaranteed.
• We never know the day nor the hour, nor the minute when death will knock
• Treat everyone like it’s the last you’re seeing of them
• Don’t wait. Don’t hesitate. Don’t think too much to say what’s on your mind to people
• Tell the people you care about that you love them and show them
• We do not have tomorrow
• Live life to the fullest
• Just because you’re a good person doesn’t mean you’ll die last.
• Grow in the word of God, go closer to God.
• Make every day worth the while
• Be nice, be patient, speak with caution because people are out here fighting battles you know nothing about.
• Try not to be a jerk, treat people nice
• If your motto for living is YOLO then I pray that you do it right, hurt no one and tread with caution

A Reminder...

I won’t give you a list for living because I myself I am just trying to figure it out. I know nothing about life, these sudden deaths just left me lost and unfounded in the deep blue sea. But in all things just try. These rapid deaths have given me a new perspective on life. For every time I lose someone it makes me think how blessed I am but also the thought of it could have been me always makes me grateful that I have been given another chance to get it right. I pray we all do.

Take off those Limits you've Set For Yourself
Free Your Soul

With that I just want to wish everyone a blessed day. Love more. Be kind. Have patience.

You Will Linger In Our Hearts Forever!
Sleep on and take your rest.

Till next time

Xoxo